Anxiety

There is a bottle of valerian root by my bed if I start to get anxious. I have water too right? The stuff works, I'm so surprised by this. The melatonin I figured out on my own, and it also works, but the doctor suggested the valerian root. They both make me sleepy, but the valerian seems to be calming more than sleep inducing. I can take it at 3:00 AM and still get up at 5:50 AM. This morning I slept right through to about 5:30 though. That felt good.

I have the entire morning to myself. Maria time. Seems the perfect temperature in bed. The sheets are slightly cool, the air outside is crisp. I can breathe when it's crisp. Jovi is still sleeping. That is good. She even went back to sleep when I asked her to turn her alarm off. The dog is barking. I'll let him out so she can sleep more. The morning is all mine.

It's 7:30 AM and the sun is out. I've got to water the garden! A morning in the garden sounds perfect. No thinking about what the afternoon might hold. The new medication seems to be taking care of some of her manic behavior. The  morning is mine.

Pet Noises

Should my rabbit snore?

Dandelion Greens

I dreamt this morning that my brother was adamant I let his boys try to find dandelion greens in my back yard. I kept saying to him that I thought the boys wouldn't like them, that I'd heard they were too bitter to just eat. He got frustrated trying to convince me that they eat them all the time and they love them and would I just let them try to find some? I told him I would, but we'd already gotten rid of them.

This perplexes me. My Monsanto buying, Round-Up spraying, weed killing brother trying to convince me that his children find dandelion greens delicious? I've wanted to try dandelion greens since the time I saw Colleen frying them. For some reason I just haven't done it. What did my dream mean?

There's sun outside. It could be gone any minute now.

Blank

Yeah, um, no thoughts lately when I wake up. In fact, I usually wake up several hours earlier than I have to and lay in bed ruminating on things. Not lately. Sleeping until the alarm goes off, waking up groggy and stumbling to work. Hmm. What's with that? OK, so this morning I did dream that I overslept and people showed up to our house expecting us to be gone already. Well, at least I seem to be sleeping through the night, but I do miss my brilliant AM ideas. Sleep or "brilliance"? Sleep.